Blocked again. This one was a different case, but it always amounts to the same thing. Access denied. And me, with my shitty self-esteem, always wondering what I could have done differently to make them stay. I find people who have lifelong friends fascinating because it is so far from my reality of friendships. Is it just me, or do others have trouble too?
Truth is, this guy was odd from the beginning. He contacted me on DeviantArt, at first just praising my work. Then he admitted that he was a writer and he had a story brewing in his head and I reminded him of one of the main characters. Invited me to send him a friend request on Facebook. I did. We would chat now and again, but only about the story which I was now helping him to develop. He referred to me as his "goddess" because of the character I reminded him of in the story. It was nice chatting online with someone again, even though he knew virtually nothing about me and didn't care to find out more.
Then it started to go south. We were still role playing online but he would up and leave in the middle of a discussion with no warning. I have experienced this before. And unless you are Batman, there is no excuse to take off in the middle of a chat without so much as a "brb". I'd like to think that even Batman would have time to type in three lousy letters. It's a matter of consideration and respect for the other person's time. So I mentioned it to him. He apologized and I thought that was the end of it. But it began to happen even more regularly and I was really getting pissed off. I should also mention that this happened to me before on a grander scale and I was forced to bid this person farewell even though I had years invested in the friendship.
So I wrote Writer Boy a message yesterday, explaining that I could not be his Goddess anymore, and why. I was quite proud of the message. I stood up for myself without tearing the other person down. Today I checked whether or not my message was received and I noticed he wasn't listed in my Friends Online list anymore. So I did some investigating and realized I was blocked. So I blocked him right back, not only on Facebook but on DeviantArt as well. Seems kind of immature when I type it out like that, but I look at it as a matter of self-preservation. I deserve better treatment than that. Everyone does.
Just another brick in the wall...
Truth is, this guy was odd from the beginning. He contacted me on DeviantArt, at first just praising my work. Then he admitted that he was a writer and he had a story brewing in his head and I reminded him of one of the main characters. Invited me to send him a friend request on Facebook. I did. We would chat now and again, but only about the story which I was now helping him to develop. He referred to me as his "goddess" because of the character I reminded him of in the story. It was nice chatting online with someone again, even though he knew virtually nothing about me and didn't care to find out more.
Then it started to go south. We were still role playing online but he would up and leave in the middle of a discussion with no warning. I have experienced this before. And unless you are Batman, there is no excuse to take off in the middle of a chat without so much as a "brb". I'd like to think that even Batman would have time to type in three lousy letters. It's a matter of consideration and respect for the other person's time. So I mentioned it to him. He apologized and I thought that was the end of it. But it began to happen even more regularly and I was really getting pissed off. I should also mention that this happened to me before on a grander scale and I was forced to bid this person farewell even though I had years invested in the friendship.
So I wrote Writer Boy a message yesterday, explaining that I could not be his Goddess anymore, and why. I was quite proud of the message. I stood up for myself without tearing the other person down. Today I checked whether or not my message was received and I noticed he wasn't listed in my Friends Online list anymore. So I did some investigating and realized I was blocked. So I blocked him right back, not only on Facebook but on DeviantArt as well. Seems kind of immature when I type it out like that, but I look at it as a matter of self-preservation. I deserve better treatment than that. Everyone does.
Just another brick in the wall...
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